Closure

Closure is now what I seek
When I pray you and I would speak
As I lay in bed tears flowing
From my last heart break astounding

Could fate be bound in misery?
Am I never meant to taste victory?
Always hoping to bump into you
I rewind the tape to hear the truth

Oh Claudia you will always be special
Sweet and smart, tall and beautiful
The ideal to whom everyone is compared
As my heart is broken, not one bit spared

I seek you with my heart
Hoping that God will allow a new start
Closure or a new beginning
The truth is that I never stopped loving

For you

I love you sweet and beautiful goddess. The most gorgeous and sexiest. My heart is wishing upon a star. To hold you close in my arms…once more.

For you sweet Lisa I would give up playing games eating chocolate and drinking Port. I would quit my job, travel the world and dive in front of a bullet. 

You probably can’t know that I’m serious and really love you that way. It’s okay. I understand. It’s crazy talk. Just talk. Unless it’s not.

I thought about quitting work this week, put in my 2 weeks notice and make drastic changes in my life. I can’t go back to who I was before I met you. You’ve changed me, made me a better man I believe. I definitely feel different. 

I don’t know what you’re feeling or thinking. Definitely I’m afraid of losing you. It might be too late already. I don’t know. I’m scared but I still have hope.

I hope that who I am inside will have made your heart love me despite your fears. I hope that God will intervene and bring back joy for both of us. I hope for one more chance to appreciate every moment I spend with you.

I am here for you and will wait until you decide. For you I would do anything and everything. 

Love,

Always yours

Lisa

I’m in love with the sweetest lady I’ve ever known and I’m being the best I’ve ever been, relationship wise. With that said, it looks like she’s having second thoughts and isn’t ready to commit to our relationship. 

It’s been only 3 months since we started dating but I knew from the first week that she was gonna be somebody special whom I would grow to love and respect. I’m not sure if I’m in shock right now or just being mature about it but I’m accepting the fact that she may choose to break up with me at this time. The way I see it, she has to want to be with me for this relationship to work. 

I’m in but is she as well? 

I’m gonna give her all the time she needs to figure this out because that’s what I would want if I were in her shoes. Like I said, I might be more mature than I realized. Especially being in love like I am, I should be worried and sad and trying to convince her to stay. 

I’m not. I guess I learned that you can’t influence another person that way.

I’m hoping that God will be there for us in this moment of truth and help us choose the right path. I’m trusting Him.

So sweet Lisa, I send you all my love and hope that your heart is touched and returns to me.